i came to the realization today that i am living in defeat. my thoughts, words and actions are the direct result of certain beliefs i have about myself. as i thought more about this, two things became pretty clear to me. first, that these beliefs are things that i have chosen to believe and, second, that they are false.
this understanding is only the beginning. i don't want to continue living my life simply with the knowledge that i am living under lies. i want to walk in the truths that God has given to me.
i spent some time praying that God would show me the lies and then fill my heart and mind with His truth...
i am not beautiful, nor will i ever be. i am fearfully and wonderfully made. (ps139:14)
my life isn't really amounting to anything. in other words, what the heck am i doing with my life? i am God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for me to do. (eph2:10)
i will never be as good at/attractive/caring/witty/etc as so-and-so. each man has his own gift from God. . . God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. (1cor7:7 and 12:18)
i will never get over my niece's death. it is simply a loss. death has been swallowed up in victory. where, O death, is your victory? where, O death is your sting?. . . thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. (1cor54-55,57)
i am living my life in fear of the next 'bad thing'... the next bombshell... the next bad news... the next circumstance that brings pain. peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. . . do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid. (john14:27)
i don't want this to be about feeling better because Scripture says some pretty good things about me or my life. my desire is that these truths will soak through to the core of my being, and that my thoughts, words and actions would be a direct result of truth not lies.
i am sick and tired of bearing the burden of lies.
i desire His yoke and His burden (matt11:30).
He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.