having been much more muchier

i recently saw alice in wonderland in 3d. blew. my. mind. i really enjoyed stepping into the world of underland for a couple of hours. and i used to be obsessed with the jabberwocky when i was little so despite his tragic demise, that made it for me. oh... and the required nod to johnny depp. (:


i mean, seriously. just look at some of these stills:

the fairytale land they created is breathtaking.


in one scene, the mad hatter tells alice "you used to be much more...'muchier.' you've lost your muchness."

bam.

how amusing that what sounds like such a silly nonsensical concept would resonate so deeply within me.

there are pieces and parts that are missing from myself. the things i would equate my muchness to include creativity, motivation, passion, drive... and i don't feel lately that i'm living in my muchness.

but living in your muchness doesn't just happen. you have to work for it, fight for it, and strive for it. but above all (and i think the movie makes a point of this as well) i think you have to know you are muchier. you have to believe in your muchness.