the prayer of the heart

"Lord, as you will, and as you know, have mercy."


- Abba Macarius (Henri Nouwen, The Way of the Heart)

true things

don't you love when you find a new band or artist to listen to? i do. and funny enough i was thinking a few days ago about how i hardly listen to music anymore. sometimes everything just seems exhausted. but because God has made us creative beings, music is being created every day. and in turn, i find someone new who brings refreshment to my musical soul. this time it was jj heller. it seems she's been around for some time, but i just discovered her for myself and l.o.v.e. her music! sometimes someone else seems to put your thoughts, emotions, hopes and dreams into words you just can't at the time, and i've found this to be true with several of her songs. as i've struggled in the past and continue to wrestle now with identity, this song has become something i sit and meditate and can find myself feeling a bit more centered once again...

true things

i’m not the clothes i’m wearing
i’m not a photograph
i’m not the car i drive

i’m not the money i make
i’m not the things i lack

i’m not the songs that i write
 

i am … who i am
i am who i am

there are true things inside of me
i have been afraid to see

i believe, help my unbelief
would you say again what you said to me

i am loved and i am free
i believe, help my unbelief

i’m not the house i live in
i’m not the man i love
i’m not the mistakes that i carry

i'm not the food that i don’t eat
i’m not what i’m above
i’m not my scars and my history

there are true things inside of me 

i have been afraid to see

i believe, help my unbelief
would you say again what you said to me

i am loved and i am free
i believe, help my unbelief

to your love i’m waking up
in your love i’m waking up

jj heller, jjheller.com

jersey bound

it's hard to believe...

but this little munchkin...

turns 3 next week!

so we're heading to jersey this weekend to celebrate her!

happy birthday kaylee cakes!

it takes time

it takes time to learn the highways, side roads, main roads and back roads of a new place.

it takes time to understand new work responsibilities.

it takes time for new friendships to grow into deep ones.

it takes time for a new living space to feel like home.

it takes time to figure out what life in a new town can look like - according to His will and glory.

it takes time for a new place to become an old, familiar one.

it takes time to be comfortable in one's skin.

be patient. it takes time.